Understanding Outer Beauty

Today while shopping at the fabulous WalMart, I decided to take a look at the make-up brushes. I know I mentioned before that I'm leaving my tomboy stage of life and turning into a lady, but this make-up brush love is normal. It's just never been fed. So, I make my way over to the aisle and I find a set of 10 brushes for 10 dollars! UNHEARD OF! Hurriedly, I carefully place them into the buggy, trying not to cry (no joke), and continue on my way shopping.

Once I get home, after putting up the perishables, I tear open my make-up brush set, excited and giddy. I've wanted a set like this for a while now and I finally have it. I start reading what each brush's job is and can't wait to try it out tomorrow morning (still can't wait!).

However, my day continues and I must leave the magnificent brush set at home. But, around 11:15, I get home. I wash my face, take evening meds, change clothes, and remember my new exciting purchase. I pull the brush set back out and inspect every brush and the mirror that comes with it. I read and reread the different "how-tos" on how to use them. I will finally look beautiful!

Hold up. That last thought that went through my head threw me into shock. I know I rarely find myself thinking I look pretty, but do I seriously think these 10 new brushes will alter my outer beauty that much?? Yes and no. That's when I realized that outer beauty isn't all about the make-up and the hair. Yes, I would LOVE to look stunning every day, but there's so much more about looking beautiful than those things. For instance, I then realized that caring about yourself starts with caring about your things. So I put down the brushes, and put up all of the clothes/things on my bed where they belong. I then take out the nice eyebrow brush I already own (and use OFTEN) and clean it. I realized that I needed to start being more careful about taking care of the space I've been given and not leave it a mess all of the time.

Also, inner beauty can seriously alter outer beauty. Anger and hatred show up on the face. Being unhappy on the inside means not smiling on the outside. I had, a few days ago, made a decision to be happier. Sounds lame, but I take life way too seriously. I know I do. I have a hard time letting loose and just laughing! Today I tried that and the usual goofy comments I take too seriously by my boyfriend and my friends I found funny! What a change it made in my day! Also, confidence is important. We must be confident in who we are and that we DO look good. Not prideful, but confident. And today I realized that those little brushes gave me confidence. By having them, I feel like I can look better and when I look better, I feel better.

I'm excited about what the future holds and what it looks like (and how good I look being a part of it!)

-Annie

24 hours home

This weekend, I got literally 24 hours home. But I enjoyed it. I got to see my rents, my bro/sis-in-law and my nephew last night and I got to see my "little sister" this morning. Mom and Sarah went to Anjea's this weekend for Anjea's baby shower! Sorry I had to miss, but there was no way I could fit it in my schedule.

Next week is GREEK WEEK!!! I'm pretty excited but nervous at the same time. I have 2 tests and a quiz next week, and have mandatory things every morning and evening. UGH. I will have to seriously ration my time and cut out most of my lazy time and make it studying time instead. Stressful, but it will be fun. On thursday I play paintball for Sigma Kappa against the other sororities. I went and practiced today, despite my fear, and turns out I like it way better than I remembered. Hopefully Chris doesn't read this! He's not suppose to know I like it! lol!

Oh, and let's not forget my doctor's appointment smack dab in the middle of Greek Week. At the appointment, we're going to talk about new enzymes and the new TOBI system they just came out with. Maybe just MAYBE these things will help me feel better. I've never been open to change, but I'm going into this appointment with an open mind, hoping and praying things get better. We'll chat about all of that later for sure.

Mom and I did some retail therapy yesterday!! It all started because I've worn out/outgrown all of my jeans and needed some new ones. So I found only one pair of jeans :[ but new underwear, 2 new skirts, and 2 new pairs of shoes!! :] So while the original goal wasn't quite met, I still got some good stuff out of it. I'm turning into such a gi.rl.

Ok time to call it a night.

-Annie

One week left

One week from today is the next doctor's appointment. Let's see how I'm feeling:

My sinuses feel pretty good, and have over the last few days, despite the sudden pollen explosion.

My gut has been bloated and feeling not-so-great off and on over the last few weeks.

My lungs have stayed about the same, I think. I'm still coughing more than I'm used to, but no more than the last visit I don't think.

My weight should be up!!! We have a scale in the bathroom that has always said ~118lbs. Monday, I stepped on the scale, and it was over 120!!! I've never been that "heavy" and I'm thrilled. We'll see what the official weigh-in is in a week.

Wish me luck!

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Now, I had mentioned before that I read Betsy's book Rodeo Sweetheart and I finished it about a week ago. It was so great! Betsy's country/rodeo lingo was flawless and you'd think she grew up on a dude-ranch herself! While it is a romance novel, it's not trashy at all, like so many of other modern-day romance novels, but that doesn't mean it's boring! It's full of mystery, passion, and classic confusion where you want to start a relationship, but know it won't work, family tension, good friends, and financial distress. It's got everything! Betsy takes all of these problems and weaves them into a story that keeps you on the edge of your seat from page one, as if relationships don't cause enough problems on their own! Order your copy today!

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Yesterday was the Spring Fling on campus! That means 2,000lbs of BIG spicy crawfish! Needless to say, I was there right at 4 when it started, and the line was already ~40 people. It was the best crawfish I've ever had, several lbs for $10, corn/potatoes included. I inhaled it. *happy sigh*

Time to start (continue) studying for my Psychology test tomorrow.

-Annie

I guess Gotham was already taken...

Ok I had to share this. I saw this on Yahoo news.

This is why no one should do meth while pregnant... just saying.

No but really, it's pretty great. These people, New York's "Superheros", have good intentions and are actually doing something about it. While I may be amused, I also applaud them. Take their example of stepping up, minus the costumes, and make a difference in this world!

Article

http://www.nypost.com/p/news/local/evildoers_nyc_own_superheroes_beware_C07qjscAB2eh34P1CsUOCO#ixzz0kz45tGWj

Extra pictures

http://www.nypost.com/p/news/local/nyc_own_superheroes_SUzGiM7E4PdOefD8FJhmZI?photo_num=1

Feeling better and worse at the same time

Stress levels have dropped. And I still don't feel better. I feel more relaxed but I'm still coughing like crazy and it's freaking me out. Oh well. The true test is in 10 days.

I have been doing some serious studying for my bio test. See?

I went through the notebook of the pages that colour and organized it so I could sort through it all. This happened after I had already learned most of it except for the few things I just couldn't remember. This has helped drastically. The list at the top left corner is the end of a much longer list of important vocab and distinctions of things that starts on the previous page. My hand looks huge. And I look cross-eyed. Haha!!

Speaking of huge, I felt 1000000lbs last night at formal. The dress I had planned on wearing (and still wore) is now too small for me. I got it this summer (given to me) and I could fit into it just fine. However, when I put it on last night, I cried because I couldn't fit. I actually popped the hook-and-eye in the back completely off. I couldn't move and sucked in most of the night because I looked preggers. Yeah, it was that bad. I looked about 4 months pregnant (well, 2 months if you're Anjea. hee hee just kidding). I didn't take any pictures but other people did and I'll steal one from facebook eventually and post it... maybe. Either way, yay for gaining weight... boo for finding out that way.

I was the DD for formal and while most people don't like to DD (because they want to drink or because they get tired of lugging people around) I actually enjoyed it. I took two groups of people home and it was entertaining to say the least. I felt really good about helping keep my sisters (and their dates) safe.

Irony has struck once again: I sit next to in class, and am now friends with, one of the people who lives upstairs (the crazies, remember?) but they don't know I know and they don't know it's me below. I just happened to find out. And now we're friends.... hopefully she never invites me over. I might get shanked by her roommates.

I ate lunch with Daniel & Laura today. They are my sunday school leaders at my church here and wanted to chat with me/pray for me because of how stressed I'm getting. They send out weekly emails requesting prayer requests and I replied to it with a request that ended up turning into a venting session. Either way, it was good to see them today and I appreciate their help and love for me. :]

Ok. Break time over. About to grab some Zapps and get back to studying!

-Annie